Thank you Roxanne for letting me adopt her and Michie for the box~! <3 Brought home and boxed at 6:19pm MST on 4/22/2010.
(By Dillon200!)
I used to think it was worthless, wasting the time yearning for something I could never have again. I'm not saying that I was a horrible mother, but I was just obsessed with the fact that my husband, HER FATHER, was gone.
She was too young to remember. I tried to keep on a smiling face, but I'm certain she noticed after a while. We became distant, untouchable, all of it leading to mistrust and deception.
I haven't spoken to her in years.
It's hard to believe my girl is already in college and paving her way to a successful life. I'm proud, but what's a mother to do when she wasn't all there? When you're physically there, but there's no emotion to tie you together.
I'm afraid. Afraid I'll never be able to make amends.
But if I never do, I'll remember to cherish the wonderful times in her childhood. Picking flowers, all the shopping... asking daddy to hoist her up one more time before bed.